Confessions of a (Typical) College Student

It is days like these...

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 20:35:42 -0400

You would DIE to do Drum Corp again. I guess it is true when someone told me that this is why athletes can not remember everything they do, because if they did they would never want to do it again lol.

None the less, this summer has been alright; it got slightly better as the summer went on. It doesn’t help that Championships are coming in two days. As I said before, is it August 9th yet?!?!?! :D

Hunh?!?!

Sat, 04 Aug 2012 22:17:07 -0400

What is up with the clouds in the sky? It was bad enough it is the middle of the summer, but you can’t also be icky like this outside. One or the other :P

Orientation!

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 02:52:04 -0400

So tomorrow starts orientation prep, and I have to say I am more excited than I thought I would be :) It should be a relatively straightforward day honestly. Just a bunch of presentations here and there, all that fun stuff.

Any lucky people coming to Davis next year, I will be seeing you at some point over the summer.

I am also kind of excited because I might get to go to the Caribbean this upcoming August! Should be a much better time, and I will be 21, so it should be a little bit different :D

Oh well, bed time for now. Happy official everyone starting summer, have a fun/wild ride, I know I have one in store :)

PS- I found out today (yes I am this slow) not only did my old DM from BDB 2010 come back this year, he is also a drum major at Sac State with my OTHER drum major from BDB 2011. Weird?!?!

Some Days....

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 01:16:27 -0400

Are better than others. This is one of the BEST days I have had in a while.

Just thought I would point that out.

Here’s to new beginnings :)

Also, this quarter isn’t over yet? I would like to go see my friends graduate at SOME point :P

I am in a legend of Zelda mood

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 19:23:16 -0400

To anyone that knows what the heck I am about to say, I have been studying for the past hour with the song of healing from Manjora’s Mask in the background.

Oddly Soothing if you ask me :)

To all my graduates out there. CONGRATULATIONS. And a...

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 19:20:50 -0400

To all my graduates out there. CONGRATULATIONS. And a reminder…

Photo

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 19:11:54 -0400

Graduation AGAIN...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 03:46:48 -0400

“Nono, I distinctly remember that was LAST YEAR” (props for whoever can recognize where the quote is from)

Someone is kidding me right? Now that I look onto the high school seniors this year, has it really been TWO YEARS?!?! Man…I must be getting old or something ><

I am so proud of all my graduating friends’ accomplishments! At the same time, it kind of makes me want to go home for a while. I am glad I get a weekend to go back home before orientation preparation :). I want to see a fair amount of people in that time, and I hope it is possible! I also just kinda wanna see my parents for a bit.

Haha…I think I am in one of those reflective moods again. Conclusion: it is time for sleep :P

NIGHT WORLD!

Waiting for this to happen...will be a good break from Orientation :D

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 03:40:52 -0400

Waiting for this to happen...will be a good break from Orientation :D

Week 10 Oh My!

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 20:53:17 -0400

Seriously! The quarter is almost over?!? What happened to the weeks. Better yet, what happened to the past YEAR? I mean come on, I know I am getting old, but not that old.

And to top it off, I am beginning to learn in life that while there are thousands of opportunities to do things, ESPECIALLY over the summer, you just have to know to let some things go. Honestly I know my summer will still be grand. And I will most likely be here at Davis most of the time working as an Orientation Leader, but at the same time there are so many other things I wish I could do. Maybe some other time I can get to those, but I don’t know if those opportunities will ever come up again. Oh well, sometimes you have to let them go.

And on top of that, I am starting ENG upper division that much sooner >< This should be an ineresting year coming up. And in all honesty I am looking forward to it. I might even get a chance to work with a professor I admire highly on a thesis I might get to publish. Not many people can say that :D

Plus, I am going to be getting to know my mech’y friends pretty well this upcoming year. Basically every class I am taking will be with them haha.

I am hoping at the end of summer I will still have some time to return home though. I want to spend some time with my parents, and especially my grandparents. Sometimes I have so many things I am doing that I never get around to thanking them for being an amazing influence on me, and I don’t know how long I will have that opportunity. On top of all that, there are a lot of people I hope to get to see back home I haven’t seen in what seems like FOREVER.

Growing up and apart sucks sometimes, but we forget that while it “looks like it sucks” that is really just so many doors opening. Don’t hesitate, go through some, and if you come back and some closed, trust me when I say more will open (or you could ALWAYS use a crowbar :P )

Also, FINALS WEEK BRING IT ON!!! Just two more weeks until home, graduation at Cal :D and I get a chance to see my Blue Family (if only for a little bit) and maybe get a pillow for my room again :DD.

On that note, if you are reading this (SPRINKLES!) and want to go to some kind of Drum Corp show over the summer, talk to me. I would love some company :)

"rubinrooben: Everyone! Blue Devils B is still in need of many brass and guard members. It is not too..."

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 03:16:45 -0400

“rubinrooben: Everyone! Blue Devils B is still in need of many brass and guard members. It is not too late to march with this amazing program. I’ve been in this group going on three years now, and i say that it is the best experience you can imagine having. We are still in need to fill…”

- Adventure Is Out There!: All Things Cavalier: Open Positions in Blue Devils B

MORE reflections

Sun, 27 May 2012 04:04:07 -0400

So I started off reading the “community book project” The Warmth of Other Suns with little hope for anything good. Another book highlighting the hardships felt from the Jim Crow south, etc…

It ended up being something more than I expected. The beginning all seemed like a huge buildup, but it grabbed me right at the end.

And in some ways, it ended up reminding me about my grandmother. About how much I cared about her, how much she really meant to me. And how much I wish I could see her one more time, to tell her how much I love her and the gratitude I have for her. She truly was a grandmother that cared for me no matter what, and she helped my mother through a lot of her own hardships. I miss her, but something of her is still around, and she continues to live on through me; I will always carry her values with me somewhere.

It didn’t help coldplay decided to come on as well, so I guess you could say this has become a very reflective evening. I find it amazing looking back, it has been over two years since high school and the journey began at Davis. And it is sometimes necessary to look back to those times to see just how things have changed. How the world has become something you might have never expected, and that the transition to college was one that you could never truly fully prepare for.

It makes me so happy to see people excited to graduate! I know I was so excited when that time came around. The world is at your fingertips, literally! Keep it that way, and no matter how life may seem to “bog down” that ability, remember it never disappears. At the same time, never lose sight of who you truly are, or want to become. It is easy to forget that person through the rest of the journey, but keep it in the back of your mind.

I know that a lot has gone on for me; cognitive restructuring in some ways as my EXB102 professor might have put it. But it is all worth it, I am beginning to see just how large and expansive this life can be, and just what kind of experience and touch I can leave on it. That happiness will always come with and from sadness, and that sometimes friendship and opportunities come from where you least expect it.

I know to some I can seem cold. That I seem to be wrapped in reason in logic, seemingly inattentive to someone’s emotional needs. But if you really stop to look, and try to get to know me, you would be surprised. I can be a very understanding, caring person. And if a friendship is something that you are looking for, I will always honor that friendship. And to me, it is something that is everlasting, and does not may attention to temporal elements. If you are having problems at midnight and there is no one else to talk to, I will always be there (and there is also a good chance I might still be up at that time anyways :P).

Yes, this has been a reflective evening…and sometimes I forget THIS can truly be what it means to be a college student, to discover these things and reflect on what they actually mean.

If you want to talk about it, you know where to find me :)

So it's Friday!

Fri, 18 May 2012 04:03:32 -0400

And I am SO ready for this Physics test. On top of that, most of my work is completed (yay!) and that is good because I don’t know how much of it will actually get DONE this weekend :D.

On top of that, I kind of got caught again in the web that is drum corp. I blame Willy though (damnit you just had to facebook chat me ><) and then I started watching videos, led to the thought “why am I NOT doing it this year?!?! Like seriously. I have like 2 more years left, and instead I want to go to work? This stuff can only happen for two more years TOTAL in my life. Eh…there are other reasons though. Of course nothing in life is that simple…usually.

Beside the point. It is getting very late, and while I would love to continue contemplating this, it USUALLY means my mind is ready to shut off for the evening. Many other things to talk about, but for another post haha. Goodnight world!

You know what I dislike?

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:28:17 -0400

At the end of an evening, having so much to tell someone, yet you can’t tell them for one reason or another. I mean seriously. lol ><

Another Wonderful Week in Davis

Wed, 16 May 2012 04:53:17 -0400

So it’s what….like week 7 now.

Classes=fine. LOVING PHY9D so far. Is it hard? In some ways yes, but the material is sort of mind blowing.

Also, I haven’t said it enough, after signing up for classes next quarter I literally have 6 hours straight of class in the SAME lecture hall. How the heck does that happen? About as rare as the fact that I have NO FRIDAY CLASSES :D

Things are clearing up both physically and mentally. Getting back into a routine, band is fun as always, and get to see Dave Koz on Friday (well…I get to USHER. I gave my ticket to my grandfather. I figured it might make his night :) ) I have begun to reflect on this very point of stability internally, and about decisions I as well as others have made. This word has seemed to ring in my ears loudly, Stability.

Regardless there is super fun midterm friday, and I must study at least a BIT for it. I am glad things are starting to mello out (see what i did there, mello :P) and I can’t wait to hear back from the DoD about the SMART scholarship (like seriously, any day now :P)

PS - Watch the movie “The Secret”. I enjoyed it, you will too :D

Hmmm....

Mon, 07 May 2012 04:21:42 -0400

School seems to be going exceptional…so far. Everything falling into the correct place. SLOWLY but surely things are beginning to develop.

Of course, I think even more at hand is the growth I have been going through. Discovering things like who I am and who I want to be; overall I am learning more about myself. However after tonight a lot of things I thought are changing. What do you expect, it’s college, and sometimes college downright sucks.

There always seems to be something special about it though. I think if I keep going, keep learning, there will always be something good in store. If I keep that attitude up, I know something will come my way, I can feel it :D

As for now, sleep and a new week await me. I can only imagine what will make THIS week unique haha

Fever of Sorts...

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 14:05:35 -0400

So FINALLY I get (some) of a weekend to actually relax and just chill before another hard week ahead. I do get to play some gigs though which is a nice way to break up the studying today.

Besides that though, I was looking on Facebook at all of the stuff people are doing. Man, it makes me look like I do absolutely nothing :P. Then I made the mistake of going to the Blue Devils facebook page. Which inherently led to the website, watching videos/listening to music. GAH….makes me miss it a lot! I know that regardless I will not be doing it this summer (other things are planned after all) but seeing some of my friends in A-corp makes me proud of them, and as always I am proud to even be remotely considered a part of that family.

Sometimes one must remind oneself you can’t do it all…sometimes you just have to be content with what you ARE doing and LOVE what you are doing. I guess in a way that’s what I am doing now.

Anyways, nap time before the next gig :)

Making the best of a situation

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 16:57:37 -0400

Well, picnic day is over. Maybe my life can gain back some normalcy now that I can focus more on school/work.

But of course, nature didn’t want it to be that easy. The minute I donate blood, all of the pollen acts up. To make it worse I don’t get much sleep, and then my sinuses just go CRAZY. Then to top it off Picnic Day was relatively hot and humid. Add it all up and about 3/4 of the way through battle I had to leave. My sinuses were on FIRE and that was the only way to get rid of it.

Thankfully one of my friends came to the rescue and saved the evening. Yes I didn’t get to go party, but I think I still had an amazing evening with an amazing person.

Now, back to work. Unlike many I worked all through picnic day, but then again what did you expect from an engineer :P. I am hoping to finish early and maybe relax a bit today (which would be really nice).

Picnic day 2012 is finally put in is place…

Wayyyyy too long

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 05:09:26 -0400

Hunh, I guess time really does fly when school comes back into session :D

So far classes are going swimmingly. I am not going to lie though, realizing that coming home at 6PM is your “early day” is kind of different, but I am willing to power through the work to reap the rewards.

I also feel like things are beginning to settle like fine sand in the water. I can say without a doubt I have a group of people I am comfortable with. Are they the people I expected a month or so ago? Not in the least bit. Then again I also thought a lot of other things would be possible back then that I have realized can NEVER happen for some very blatant reasons (if you REALLY want to talk about it then maybe ask :P). Alas, it is becoming but a distant memory in my mind.

And yes, Picnic Day Season does make it a bit better. But in some ways I find this season to be very detrimental. Not only academically but physically. Yes there is a lot of fun associated with it, but I think it is really easy for people to get carried away.

Eh, not my problem really. Need some sleep before tomorrow. More advising to do for all those young-in’s we call incoming freshman. I remember when I was in that boat; I hope I can be a peer/person that even I could have looked up to at that point.

Goodnight :)

Coming to a Close

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 03:46:26 -0400

Well, the week is almost up. Tomorrow is mainly a shopping day; need some food and a haircut, plus pick up my bike from the shop. My aunt is also coming over for dinner, so that will be super fun. Then it’s back up to Davis for one final round for the school year.

And, OF COURSE, I finally get word about a position as a learning assistant in a Physics D/L that I should have gotten months ago. Throws a wrench into my schedule, but I can work around it all eventually. Will just take some time.

Overall, besides today which has been pretty logistical, the rest of break has been a good time. Yes, slept in some days, and played some games. Chilled with my parents and grandparents (important, never know how long they will be here), and got to see some friends.

To make it even better, I got to go hiking, and even mini-golfing. Yes, be jealous. It was fun, and I got to know someone really well in the process. In fact, we have had a lot of long nights just talking, and quite honestly we have gotten to know each other really well. Its nice to find people out there to connect with and share your story :)

Alas, it is back to the old grind. While Picnic Day looms in the distance, I have bigger things on my mind. I still haven’t heard anything back about working for the DoD, and that will decide the fate of my summer (will I be an Orientation Leader? You will just have to stick around to find out O_o).

OH, and remember. Sometimes you learn the most about yourself when you do the least, and it can be something as simple as just sitting in a chair. You would be suprised with what you might find, but in the end it will only help.

But I babble. It’s late, and I wanted to write something down. In all honestly this is mainly so I remember what has been going on, not for “all you” (whopping like 4 people haha) to know what I am doing.

Sleep well world, I will see you again in Davis :)